I'm not used to having people care about me this much

I'm used to meeting large numbers of new people multiple times a week.

I'm not used to people knowing me so well.

it freaks me out that you can read me.
it scares me that you know what I'm going through.
I can't stand that you notice when I'm acting different.

But what freaks me out the most is that you're not letting me get away with it.
you're not just sitting back and letting shit happen.

that's what they all have done before.

I'm speechless.

you took every thought in my head and said it right back to me.


now i just fear i made the wrong choice.


no. LA is what i want.
i
fuasckcuckfuckfuckfuckfcuk

DAMNIT!!! i don't want to go to fucking pasadena.
i don't want another fucking roseville.
i don't give a shit about LA.

but i don't want NY either.



no.
i don't want to be here again.

fuck this shit.
FUCK THIS SHIT!!!!!

i hate this place.
this location
this set of mind.

all this shit.


perfect.
i'm back where i started.


i don't know what the fuck i want.





and now i'm hurting the people i care about most.

i'm sorry.

i don't know what to think.





whatthefuckisthis?!!!!!!!!