listening to "pictures of you" again

how did tonight go from crazy awesome fun to shitty in 2 seconds flat.

Seriously...
i'm looking at pictures from Jr. high, 6th grade, Highschool.

and usually that sort of activity brings back good memories...
not tonight.
just about every depressing even in my life came back to me looking at these pictures.
even the ones from 6th grade....
most people were havin the time of their lives. livin it up while they were young...
being kids still in there last fleeting moments before the horrors of jr. high.

but no. 6th grade was one of the worst years of my life.
at least i could pretend like i had friends back then. hahaha.

and looking back at Jr. high... what happened there that i'm still ok now?
like... i should be in rehab with my first baby right now with the kinda shitty situations i put myself in... how did i manage to get all the way through highschool without even trying some of this shit.

and then there's high school. met some of the coolest people ever in those years.
did some of the coolest things ever.
and now what do i have to show for it?
hahaha.

those things seemed so important at the time.
and now... it doesn't even matter?

i need to go to sleep before i make myself depressed.

woo woo.... NY is going to be so fun!

i can't fuckin wait to move!!!!