update.

It was very tempting to go back and delete some of those older posts....
very embarrassed, but I supposed I am what I am today, because of the choices I made yesterday...
and why hide that...

right... moving forward.
and I suppose upon moving forward, you should always glance back, so as not to repeat the same mistakes.

A year ago this time, I was not in a good place. I had decided to stay in NYC after my first plan of being here for "just a summer" expanded into, "making it work" a bit longer. Well, making it work turned into a bad situation and I was convinced I was moving back home... but again, somehow, this city called me back... and here I am, in Brooklyn, Working at a cafe in the lower lower east side of Manhattan.

Maybe I should go about this a different way, maybe instead of trying to look at how far i've come in the past year (i've come a very long way, you see, it'll take forever.)
maybe instead I'll just go over topics of interest.

alright, the ever-so-popular subject of love:
I don't know what love is, if it is what everyone describes it as, I give it away so freely to as many people as I can.... but it seems lately that I'm either becoming more particular of who I give it to, or I'm running out of it.
a subtopic: infatuations/chrushes/lusts/boys in general :
my most exciting subject lives on the other side of this country and 1) is just a friend and 2) if he were to turn to me and confess his undying love I would tell him I'm just not ready for a relationship right now. (at least I would hope I'd be strong enough to say so)
Work :
like I said earlier, I work in a Cafe in the lower east side. 2 cafe's technically, they're called Flowers Cafe, they have a kind-of hippy theme to them. My job is so many different things to me all the time that it would be hard to explain it from my point of view in a nutshell... everyday there is an adventure. Many of my stories will come from interactions with customers I have there, and even more stories will come from interactions with my boss Bill.
Bill :
yes, my boss gets his own subject line. He is part of my daily life, he is my boss, he is taking care of my cats until after christmas (he has been for quite some time now), and anytime I have any sort of question about anything in NYC - I ask him (seeing as he was born and raised in brooklyn). Bill is much older than me but somehow we have been able to relate to one another and I am so thankful that we have this friendship.
Friends :
making friends in NYC is not an easy task. I suppose it didn't help that the majority of my life here has been spent with my BFFZ Brie. and when brie and I are together, we are a clique. an amazing, funny, sparkely, bitchy, sexy, lush-ful clique. nevertheless i was able to make a few connections here and there that have eventually been built into friendships that I hope will last for a very long time.
Liz :
among these friendships, Liz is one of the few that I know for CERTAIN will last a very long time. Liz is amazing. She is funny (every range of funny too... the perfect mix from sarcastic whit to just plain silly.), She is intellegent (college certified ;), she is intuitive (MAN is she! she can read people like BOOKS and yet, she'll accept your facades so as not to push uncomfortable buttons), and she is ABSOLUTELY gorgeous (She is the kind of beautiful that can only be described as gorgeous, beautiful would be much too plain of a word. from her long fire hair, to her huge intelecuale yet loving eyes, to her ever-improving woman body that is complemented even more so by her style that can only be described as her own... not so different that it's unrelatable, yet original enough not to be steriotypical) anyway, there is much more to be said about Liz so I shall leave it at that and move on to the next topic of interest...

or better yet, we'll call it a current topic
because my topics will change on a daily basis and that is why I am hoping I'll update this more often, so that I can look back on it and see where i've been. not just who I was crushin on at that time or how many drinks I had or.... shit I've begun to stray off topic... uhhh where were we...uooooo right, current topic

Future :
what does the future hold?