Thursday, December 10, 2009

I'm sorry to say, this is a dear diary entry....

nope. you will NOT get my hopes up again.
nope. I will NOT expect anything different from you.
nope. your sugar words will not tempt my sweet tooth.
I will NOT read too much into your kind words and promises....

you might have gotten some of my hopes up though.
I'm pathetic!

I HATE that I'm writing on this subject of YOU!... stupid.
I HATE that I STILL allow you to have any sort of effect on my emotion
I HATE that I am typing this in such a mindset! i hate typing when i'm feeling such strong emotions... that's what journals are for! but I was sitting at my computer when this came over me so why not? It therapeutic to write what sturs your emotions! but that's what a journal is for. this is for diary's.... ones that you hid under your pillow with a secret code so that no one will ever know that it ever had any effect on you. ihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyou.

i like to write when i am calm and collected.

When I am feeling extream emotions I dont look at every angle of things, I'll write passionately and completely bias. and i dont like that. i like LOOKING for different perspectives, I like being my own devils advocate. I also hate the form I use when i'm "feeling strongly." It's obnoxios how many times I'll repeat a word or statement. I run all overthe place not making good points or using complete thoughts. ramble. stray off topic.

BAH HUMBUG!


1 comment:

L said...

"your sugar words will not tempt my sweet tooth."

...you are a lyricist, my dear.