Bringing this one back... to be lame haha

and again.
This should come with a warning. !!! may cause drama !!!


Ten Anonymous Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People:

1. Read my blogs, my journals, and my thoughts, you'll still never know how much you hurt me. but i still love you. - all i'm waiting for is for you to apologize
2. I hate you. (hopefully i won't by the time you're old enough to understand what i mean by that.) - it's getting easier, but i'm still not there yet.
3. stop half assing shit and work towards something. you're not going to be passionate about something till you start working towards it. it's not going to show up in your life one day and open your eyes to what you've been looking for. you probably already found it.... dumbass
4. You are amazing. I know you always say so, but you actually are. no need to prove it to any one. we all already know.
5. there's this song... by kelly clarkson... hahaha. (i shouldn't admit to this). but everything in the song is what i want to say to you. (and, no it's not "since you've been gone!") - i feel like i've failed at what i was working so hard on. i put a lot on myself and now i feel like it was pointless.
6. You're such an amazing friend and as little time we spend together, I agree with brie, you'll be in my life forever and i'm happy you will be :)
7. There is so much i want to say to you but i don't think i'd be able to put it all in comprehensive sentences. I've put you through hell. and I'm so sorry. I love you terribly and i just didn't believe you when you said you cared too. i see now how silly it was for me not to believe you. I could blame my lack of trusting people on my family situation, but fucking things up with you is the only thing i can honestly say i regret. I just consider myself lucky to still be friends with you. I still think of you constantly.
8. You've hurt me so bad. I hate the influence you've had on my personality. but i have this handy cap that makes me still care about you. I've already forgiven you, but you're not sorry. and i do honestly still hold you in my heart. no matter what else i say, i care.
9. I still haven't figured you out.
10. there is more to this world than drugs and alcohol. ... and shoes. You have so much passion and so much potential. I can't let you lose that. don't beat yourself up too much anymore. I'm sorry i wasn't there for you in your hardest times. but i'm here now. and there will be harder times to come. I love you!

Nine Things About Yourself:

1. I'm confused
2. i love God
3. i want to be outside more
4. i don't get along with "girly-girls"
5. I love to sew, but don't know what to do with it
6. I'm the happy-go-lucky bitch
7. family comes first.
8. im in the longest transition mode of my life.
9. I'm so ecclectic sometimes i feel hypocritical when it comes to things i like.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:

1. be spontaneous
2. don't give up on me, i'm not gunna trust you right away.
3. be kinda a jerk... but care about things that matter.
4. love God.
5. try new things and get me to try new things too.
6. talk to me about anything and everything (aspecially things you can't talk to other people about)
7. dont smother, aspecially in public.
8. show me what you're proud of (and be proud of yourself), and be proud of what i show you.

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A lot:

1. friends
2. life
3. life
4. family
5. what i'm doing with my life
6. my not smoothness when it comes to the opposite sex. haha
7. specific friends

Six Things You Wish You Never Did:

1. took money out of my savings account. it's back now... but money is the root of all evil
2. waited too long to say things (happens often)
3. didn't try somethings cuz i was too chicken
4. put so much pressure on myself growing up
5. ten min. late
6. like i said earlier. fucked things up with a friendship, and I'm not particularly talking about one moment in time.

Five Turn Offs:

1. arrogance
2. boogers
3. lackluster personality
4. easily offended
5. lazyness

Four Turn Ons:

1. big noses.
2. Good family values
3. Great personality(humor fits in this one i think... and i can't rule that out)
4. punks/rockabilly's/tattoo's/piercings (i don't care if you think that's cheating)

Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:
:X
:D
:S
(i honestly don't even know what any of those mean... i kinda just picked the goofiest one's possible... they def. DON'T describe my life)

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:

1. love w/out holding back
2. tell my grandkids a story about "back in my day"

One Confession:

1. I hit on a married man once. but in my defense, he wasn't wearing a ring.