well if it takes shit to make bliss

then i feel pretty blissfully.




oooooooh what a waste of my TIME
damnit.


not a COMPLETE waste. but REALLY?!

fuckin really?








yup. i guess so.












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Welp. after talking to you i feel really good.
like.
REALLY good.
hahahahahha I'm excited.

i always thought those modest mouse lyrics were great because it was an interesting way to say i feel shitty.
but hahaha. now i mean it quite literally.
i feel pretty blissfully.

I always knew this was temporary. But wow.
i'm SO excited.

this is not going to be easy. but GOD it's going to be worth it.
i mean. what's better than a summer in LA?
a summer in NY that's what.
hahahaha

but i've never been so excited to spend time here since i've moved here.
I'm so glad to be here.
and when xtina comes back it'll be even better.
I love it here.
I love where I'm going.

it's well with my soul.
for myself.

hahaha









*side note - through this entire blog i've been thinking about those modest mouse lyrics (cuz it's playing right now {"The View"}) and every time i typed out laughing (hahaha) i hear myself laughing like how the singer laughs in the song "The Devil's Workday" HAHAHA.