My Ringtone

my ringtone inspired these thoughts.

I wonder.
I sometimes wonder...

I often wonder,
what would life be like? what would I be like?

what if...

what if my dad had never done that.

would my parents still be happily married?
Would my dad teach me things like how to fix up cars?
would my mom be happy and never lonely?
would my brother not have had such a hard time making friends in HighSchool?
would i have more inspiration to do amazing pieces of art that my father helps me with?

would we still be living in this house? or would we be worse off?
would i have these same asperations? would i have any at all?
would i have and hold these same morals?

would i have met all the people i know and love?

i think i'd be more trusting of people. He was my superman... but i guess superman has kryptonite. fuck.
The scar tissue that i wish you saw... i wish you could see. i wish wasn't there.

i understand that whatever has come from my parents sepparation is for the best...
but sometimes it's hard to understand.

very hard.