how did i do it?

i tried to be smart.
i tried to make the best decision.

but here i am.
dealing with the worst mistake ever.
reflecting back on a lot of things i've done in my life....
and feeling like it's all been ...
just one bad mistake after another

it's like everything i touch turns to dust....

hahahahaha.

this has ruined me.
I'd like myself back thank you.












I'M the positive one. I'M the happy-go-lucky one.
so why am I finding it so difficult to see the good in all this.





I'm never like this.




this isn't me




can't we just go back to how it used to be?
no.... i don't really want to go back.
i want to go forward.












FUCKING GO!!!!!!